Tuesday, August 11, 2009
~assign it urself~
i have the feeling that i am so useless, hopeless, stupid. honestly, this is the first time of my life i am feeling this. i feel like an loser now.....i have lost... totally.... i have gave up.......
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
~True Friends?~
What is True Friends? is it someone that will be there besides u when u need them? If this is so, how many ppl really have something called true friends? i am really wondering... spend ur whole life finding for true friends... but, who can really find one? thinking that u have really found one, think twice, is he/she really the true friend of urs... or he/she is there to make use of u onli.......
| loving every moment 12:08 PM
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Friday, July 24, 2009
~Have I Change....?~
okay..... went back CVSS to have my o lvl cert chop with the sch stamp.... the school is so quiet without my batch there to add colours to CVSS... hahahs.... saw mr lim and ms Tan. the first thing mr lim said to mi is that.. "melvin, u have change, i nearly cannot recognise u..." then i am stunned... i answerred. in which way am i changed? AND THE FIRST THING HE SAID IS " ur face is better now....." Zzzzz. But i am happy... hahas cos my face is recovering.... there are two more things that he said i have change. he said" ur hair are longer now and ur face are sharper.. sharper? i wonder..... then, ms tan came to the GO... and mr lim tell her i have change... and the first thing she said... "Yar.... he change. his hair is now longer... longer then his Wilson Teo Wei Song." okay... i am going to cut my hair SHORT!!!!!!! hahahs... since my Poly life starts, there are abt 5 ppl saying i have change.... and i am seriously wondering if i changed? or not? for the good or bad? how am i doing now? and how i do at the past? i SERIOUSLY HAVE NO ANS TO IT.... Confused....
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~CVSS ARE BETTER NOW.....~
ytd met mrs seow(ms lei) and mr seow and coffee shop.... lols.... when i am with desmond and wilson..... we have hours of talks sitting there.... and mr seow teaching us how to woo girls.... LOLS.... and mrs seow remains quiet there... i wonder if he use these techniques to get mrs seow... hahas...
we recalled our 4 years in CVSS ytd.... the fun we had in seec 1 when the "BEST " is in my class and ms lei was there to teach us. and i rmbed, the first day she came in, she scolded us.....
after my batch of went on with our life in different sch, ms lei ytd told us that CVSS property damages have been reduced to almost ZERO!! Meaning, my batch has given damaged to the sch property by a lot.... one of it is the pouring of hydrochloric acid in to the koi pond... lols... and almost all the fishes inside died... they spend abt a thousand to buy in mew koi fish.. surprised? hahas.
reall miss my secondary sch life... it was the fun-est ever.... bright up my life. and i my batch have a impact to the teachers that taught us b4.... not a small one, but a huge one.... =P
and we even mad teachers cry..... laugh at teachers that didnt shave(if u know who i saying abt).
i think they MISS US ALOT TOO.....
| loving every moment 8:22 PM
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~am i wrong....~
weeks of warmness is pouring on mi... with a sudden change of warmness, i am sick.......
cold wind blowing on mi. ice forming on the ground. i am freezing... Am i wrong and i have to suffer this punishment?
| loving every moment 12:10 AM
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Wednesday, July 22, 2009
~the ship i step onto.....~
i feel that i have been drifting further and further away from the ship i board initially. After the time that used the rescue boat for me to have some quiet time, i cant catch up with the ship anymore.... the ship are moving so fast.... no matter how i tried, it is useless. i can onli see bits of the ships left. as days pass, it gets smaller and smaller.... any way to increase the speed of my boat.... ='(
| loving every moment 9:04 PM
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
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why does my parents dun trust mi..... it been so many years... nth have change.... wat i explained is totally useless..... i should jus keep my month shut next time since they have already have the decision that i am guilty... the more i explain myself, they will jus think i am defending myself for my faults...
when in sec 1 to 4, i am totally restricted by them. no trust. NOTHING at all... my mother once ask mi... y i nv tell her abt wat happen in sch when my sister always tell her. amd i kept quite for it. thinking in my mind, u dun even trust mi, wats the use of telling u wat happen in school... and she also keep asking y nv bring my friends home to do projects or study when i always go my friends hse... and the ans in my mind is, she always think that my friends are bad.. they will bring mi to the wrong path... like WTH!!! dun i know how to differeniate the good and bad? cant they trust mi for once for the decisions i made?
now that i am 17. in poly. nothing have change. and i mean nothing. hoping for the good? i wished it happens...
perhaps, i dun think i will get wat i wish for..
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